MELVACREANATION !

Still here with the same feeling for the same person. How dumb I am.

Hardest thing to do? Move on.

Kau tahu susah kan nak keluar dari perasaan suka dekat seseorang tu sebab kau dah terbiasa.

Dah biasa fikir pasal dia hari hari. Dah biasa teringat kat dia bila ada orang yang lebih kurang sama segi fizikalnya. Dah biasa teringat dia bila terbau perfume orang tu lebih kurang sama. Teringat dia bila makan makanan yang dia pernah cerita dia suka makan. Teringat dia bila tengah berjalan betapa kau berharap dia ada tengah berjalan dengan kau masa tu. You even wish he's among the crowd you've been. And yeah, he's doing fine without thinking even about your shadows.

How to get out? Get out from that feelings?

Kau kata kau dah move on bila kau dah jarang bercerita pasal dia. But deep inside, you know he's still there.

Kau tipu.

Kau ingat kau boleh lupakan semua dengan menggantikan yang baru sedangkan yang baru langsung tak ada kenangan sama yang boleh ganti.

Jarang nak dengar yang kau ni betul.

It's hurt you. I know.

Kau selalu terfikir if he's not feel the same way like you do, why is he acting like he's into you.

Dan dalam masa yang sama juga, kau terfikir, if he's into you, why did he act like he doesn't care about you at all?

Is he ever ask you whether kau dah sampai rumah belum setiap kali korang keluar by separate cars? No he didn't.

Is he ever ask you untuk teman dia kemana mana or to find anything he needed? No he's not.

Is he ever care to fulfill the promises he made? I don't even think he's remember that.

Yeah that "little" thing doesn't define anything.

You know it's hurt you the most.  You know he never cares about you the same way like you did. But why did you still there, waiting for him to realise that he has you who stand by his side in any decisions he make?

You're acting like you're trying to commit suicide. By killing yourself doing that.

Why?

Ask yourself.

Is he really worth it?

What hurt you the most is you know he's not.