frenemies =)

you know what? sometimes enemies are better for us than a friends.

why?


because enemies will say bout our weaknesses and mistakes in good faith than our own friends.

kata orang,kawan gelak ketawa senang nak dpat. berduyun-duyun datang bile kita tengah senang and bergembira. at that time,semua ngendeng-ngendeng (dekat-dekat) dgn kita and at that time kita ade siket rase berlagak kat some peeps. memang tak patut kita mcm tuh tapi bile da ramai sgt yg ngendeng-ngendeng mane nak prasan tuh sume kan.

tapi bile kita susah or ade masalah and perlukan pendapat seseorang or pertolongan seseorang, mane kawan tuh? mane kawan yg ade dgn kita mase senang dulu? mane dia orang yg sebok2 ngendeng-ngendeng kita tuh? jgan kata nak nampak batang hidung,bayang-bayang pon tak tentu timbul. bile kita ternampak and terserempak,tak tegur pon. jgn kate nak tegur, senyum pon tade. bile kita panggil mcm nak lari dari kita. padahal bila kita senang dulu dia yg sibuk2 nak kawan dgn kita. mase tuh BFF laa,BESTIE laaa,FRIENDS FOREVER laa,SIBLINGS laa tapi bila kita susah skrg? harrram. tade pon nak tolong kita.

at last orang yg kita berlagak mase kita senang tuh la yg tolong kita. orang yg kita tak brape suka tuh laa yg ade dgn kita. yg lain?? tade makne nye.

thats why my mummy always said, "jgn senang sgt nak benci orang or tak suke kt orang tuh. mane kita tau nnti orang tuh yg akan tolong kita berbanding orang yg kita 'suka berkawan' tadi. kita pun tak tau orang yg kita 'suka berkawan' tuh betul ke sebenarnya nak kawan dgn kita sebab kita. kita tak tau,ntah2 orang yg kita 'suka berkawan', yg kita same2 duduk crite psal orang lain tuh tak suke pon dgn kita. ntah2 orang yg kita duduk ketawa same2 tuh sibuk crite2 blakang psal kita kat orang lain." 

so tak payah laa nak benci2 or tak suke kat 'dia ni' laa, 'dia tuh' laa. sebab kita tak tau pun ape pulak yg orang lain fikir psal kita. suke kawan dgn kita ke, tak suka kawan dgn kita ke. mane kita tau. hati orang kan hmmm

APEAPESAJELAAYEADASAYAKESAH : bole di katakan saya mengalami semua situasi yg saya ckp tadi. every year bila saya jumpe kwan baru je,mesti ade kwan lama yg akn bgtau kwan baru tuh psal saya or apape. saya tau mereka tak suka sgt dgn saya nii. byak sebabnye. saya tanak tau kenape mereka tak suka saya,cukup la saya tau yg mereka tak suka saya.  tuh da ckup buat saya sedih kdg2 T_T  lagi pun memang sala saya. sape suro saya nii 'berperangai'  mcm tuh. tapi setakat ini. mereka layan saya as their friend, and mereka layan saya dgn baik. dan saya happy mereka layan saya dgn baik. walaupun kdg2 ade yg nmpak sgt tak suka saya. tape. saya tak kesah. dan saya akan berusaha menjadi someone yg disenangi mereka (but kalau da tak bole nak buat mcm mane kan. terime jela. but i am for who i am.)

THANKS TO : them, for being a best and supa great classmates for 2 years [4T1 & 5T1] and tahan dgn prangai saya (tapi kalau tak tahan ckap tau hee).
LAST WORDS : sorry if this entry buat mereka marah or tak suka or apape je prasaan yg bla bla bla. i didn't mean it. just to say my opinion :))

tak suke cakap oke!

firstly nak cakap yg this entry about them which is mean guys not girls. jgn sala anggap ye. and this entry bukan nak gaduh2 or what and ni bukan pasal kau yg aku pena 'carik pasal'  dulu. 

still tak tau hape msalah these guys dgn saya. since last year pokk! adoiii sape bole tahan bile da almost hari-hari mcm nii an. then, bile ckgu da bg pinjam kite punye SCIENCE PEKA, they should keep it properly or jage ar baik2 an.ni tak, bile kite tanye dia bole pulak jwab dgn muke cover2 handsome dia tuh, "mane ade aku pinjam kau punye. aku pinjam ***** punye laa." bole pulak an dia ckp mcm tuh. da sah2 kite nmpak membe die passing kertas kite kat dia an. then bile kite tanye mane kertas kite, dia jwab, "mane aku tau" dengan muke blagak and mcm da handsome tuh. adoiiii panas je an. da pinjam orang punye, tanak ckp betul2 pulak. da la peka penting tuh. nti tak dpt markah,dorang nak tanggung ape? adoii.

then bile kite ckp kat cikgu yg kertas kite hilang mase dorang pinjam,lagi nak mara2 kite pulak. kate kite tuduh2 dorang pulak.da memang last kite nmpak kertas tuh dorang pegang. then mcm nak maki2 pulak. TAK SUKE SAYA CAKAP!! ni tak, suke2 je nak maki2 orang. mcm da good2 je. YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO SAID THAT TO ME!!

elehh saya tau lah saya nii tak cantik mcm others,tp at least saya tak ade lah, nak cover2 cantik mcm korang (cover2 handsome) mcm laa handsome sgt. (uncle depan ruma saya lagi handsome). malu sehh dulu suke kat one of my friends but my friend tuh tak layan pon haaha malu siaa haa :)) aa pasal science peka tuh, saya tau korang nak kenakan saya kan. sebab korang memang tak suke saya kan. ye saya tau tuh

APEAPESAJELAAYEADASAYAKESAH : saya cume kate ape yang saya rase je oke. fine! maybe a bit melampau but if you at my shoes,hape agaknye rase bile ade orang yg jenis mcm nii kite kene hadap. sorry for any mistakes or terkasar bahasa. honestly saya tak suke nak buat mcm tuh kat orang lain. i don't want to argue or fighting. saya tanak the same mistakes repeated. i don't want 'pisang berbuah dua kali' oke. so for them or sapesape yg rase dia tak puas hati or tak suke dgn saya,just say it or leave me a message. saya tak kesah. as long you tell me.

kerinduan melampau :\

suda agak lame tidak meng-update ini blog. like usual busy with my study *cehh pdahal tade laa busy sgt* yela yela memang tak busy sgt but malas pulak nak meng-update ini blog. tatau nak post psal hape :)

what ever it is, i miss this blog a hundred trillion times whoee!~

i had many story to updates. byak sgtsgtsgt bnde nak tulis sebenarnye,so i will update a.s.a.p.

between us (love story) [part 2]

this entry adalah sambungan dari previous entry. this one is part 2. for those who already read the previous one, here the next part 2 :)

15 February 2010

its almost a month you became our new monitor. and selama tuh, kite banyak do class things together,but susa sgt nak dengar you bercakap. memang salu your friend or our friend yg byk tolong kite yg ckap. i ingat you tak faham bahasa melayu. i tak tau la you memang betul tak faham or you memang saje tanak ckap. so i bia jela as long you buat sume keje yg cikgu bagii. but byak2 bende cikgu suro buat,bende yg paling i tak suke nak buat dgn you is angkat buku and carik cikgu lain. bukan ape, you tuh haa,mcm tade prasaan je an. nak angkat buku yg ringan je. bukan nak kate buku yg i angkat nii berat sgt, but berat laa (alaa baru 5 buku da kate berat) 5 buah buku tuh berat taukk. and paling menyakitkan hati bile you bole buat tak tau je,sedangkan you da nampak yg i nii terhegeh-hegeh bwak buku yg berat tuh naik tingkat 3. sampai hati kan T_T you memang pentingkan diri sendiri. tak gentlmen langsung!!!  

22 February 2010

that day you tak dtg skola. i rase happy sebab i tak payah nak buat keje dgn you and tak payah nak tahan dgn perangai you yg tah hape-hape tuh. but mostly i kene buat keje sorang2 selain dibantu oleh our setiausaha. quite fun jugak bile you tade so, senang siket i nak buat keje tuh :) yela slame nii ikot kepala  you je nak buat keje yg cikgu bagi huh. tapi i tak tahu kenape, i feel like boringg je. why eh? : \

26 February 2010
da five days you tak datang kenapa eh? salunye kalau ade student tak dtg mesti our form teacher tanye,but dia tak ade pulak tanye you. and every time,your friend tanye dia "cikgu,kenape Dylan tak datang?" dia just gelengkan kepale je. what is that suppose to mean? agaknye kenape ar? lame da tak nampak muke kerekk you tuh. lame da i buat keje dgn our setiausaha nii. he's different, buat keje slow siket. tak mcm you. kalau you,madahh nak cepat je. so i pon dah terbiasa. then bile you tak ade rase lain pulak "ohh kau suke kt dia eh? haa haa" my friend akan ckp cm tuh bile i tanye kenape you tak dtg "ehh mane ade. no way! tak kan aku suke kat dia. NEVER!!!!" and thats my answer.

1 March 2010
finally, you came! you came after 5 days tak datang. but your face tak mcm salu. i don't know how to describe but for sure,memang lain. even salu you tak byak ckap and jarang senyum tapi muke you tak mcm tuh. lain gile. "dia botox la tuh. 5 hari tak datang" i don't know ape agaknye yg my friends fikir bile i kate you mcm lain siket. botox?? mcm tak logic je an haha. your face yg tak mcm salu tuh la buat i rase there is something wrong. but what is it?

8 March 2010

all this long, you tak pernah tegur i. maybe siket2 tuh ade lah.but not often. the most suprising me is, today you speak to me! whoa!~  i was glad bile you ckap dgn i,yela selama nii tak pernah kan. but unfortunately, you speak in a horrible way. you tak pernah nak marah i bile i sala buat keje yg cikgu bagi, slalu you tegur mcm tuh je tuh pon kadang2 je. but today,you show to me mcm you tak suke cikgu bgi you keje dgn i. i was shock! why? "tapikan,kalau dia ade probs ke hape ke,dia tak boleh tiba-tiba marah kau babe. rase mcm tak patot je kan" Kyra's reaction when i tell her bout that. (kyra was my friend oke) "haiss lantak dia lah. ade aku kesah ke? naseb aku tak stay satu ruma dgn dia,kalau tak mesti aku madahh kene marah je an" replied me. i don't mind. lagi pon memang salah i bile i salah letak file yg penting tuh.

22 March 2010
my mummy said, "mummy nak outstation esok. maybe for a few weeks. and no one gonna take care of you. takkan mummy nak tinggalkan you sorang2 kat ruma. so we decide nak mintak our friend for tengok2 kan you. so do you mind if you have to stay kat ruma dorang selama kitorang tak ade?" memang. my parents always kluar sane sini. kdg2 almost a month and i have to stay at my grandma's house. it was awkward sebab i jarang stay kat ruma orang. but i have to kan. nak buat mcm mane. so i terpakse agree dgn my parents decision nak i stay kat ruma kwan dorang. i tak pernah sangka yg my parents punye friend tuh bole pulak ade kne mengene dgn.... wtheck?!! i was too shock! how can..?? ohh gosh!!

to be continue..

APEAPESAJELAAYEADASAYAKESAH : banyak idea saya nak tulis psal nii. i love writing actually :) so i will make sure, coming up part will make you smile :) 

no need

on working day, i always be alone and bored. all day long i do is online every account that i have. da dekat 9 hours i ngadap lappy nii. tak tau nak bukak ape lagi. sgt boringg taukk! but my phone rang and change my day :)

excited nak angkat call,ingat sape yg call rupe nye

Feeqa : buad ape?
me : nothing. online. since 12 noon tadi
Feeqa : what? 12 noon? now da 9 p.m babe! wow! haha tak boring pulak?
me : wak you lah tak boring. da nak gile i online sorang2 taw. tunggu you online,kelaot je.

Feeqa : walauweii sabo yaw babe. bukan i tanak online but i malas wei nak online. bile i online i tengok you je yg online. boringg seii haha

me : cehh yela kan. boring tengok i online. you yg sebok i.m i bile you online,lagi nak kate boring haha

Feeqa : haha alone? 

me : yup. as usual. huhhh

Feeqa : tak kluar? 

me : tak kot. tade membe pokk. nak kuar ape nye.

Feeqa : hah? tade membe? your cousin?

me : haa don't know laa. busy kot dorang. 

Feeqa : haa tuhla i suro carik boyfriend tanak.

me : heii, i got many boyfriends what. how many do you want?

Feeqa : babe,you nii bebal ke saje buat bebal? haha bukan tuhla i mean the SPECIAL one. 

me : whoa! special one hah?i have you and others.why should i get the special one?all of you are special to me :)

Feeqa : eceehh kitorang special. yolah tuh. tade bukan ape babe, at least you tade laa sitting alone like this tauk. 

me : alaa babe, buat ape? i bukannye cantik sgt mcm you. sape je yg nak jdi special i. 

Feeqa : ceit tacing pulok. bla la you. abeh ingat i nii cantik ke? aaa ade laa siket kot haha

me : ah suda. i da puji lebih2 pulak ehh. haha eh find me one laa 

Feeqa : hoo bole. nak mcm mane? meh sini i carik kan

me : hahaha. i want... aaaa... like the one yg i tunjuk kat you hari tuh ngee

Feeqa : which one ar?

me : alaa yg k*r**n tuh heee

*terkejut gile dia bile saya ckap saya nak yg mcm nii (with the car skali oke :)

Feeqa : haaahhh?? bia betul you ni babe?

me : ape? betul la *dgn nada yg serious

Feeqa : gile you! mane i nak carik yg mcm tuh.

me : haa you yg tanye i nak yg mcm mane. i jwab laa. haha

Feeqa : ehh you nii betul la taw. nak yg tuh je. tinggi pulak tuh.

me : wei mestilah. tinggi la bagus kan. takan yg same tinggi pulak. haha

Feeqa : ahh suda la you. i serious you main2 pulak. 

me : eh i serious la ni. sape suro you tanye. haha

Feeqa : ah suda. oke la babe, wanna do my homework. don't forget yours. esok, kite crite balik pasal nii oke.  i tak puas hati betul dgn your answer. 

me : haha ape seii you. alaa tak payah buat laa. 

Feeqa : haa bagus tak payah buat. pas tuh kite punye bet, comfirm i menang,bole? 

me : heii apesal pulak. mane bole. 

Feeqa : abes tuh sape suro tanak buat. 

me : yola2 i buat. haiiss ugot pulak.

Feeqa : haaha biase laa. oke babe,ttyl (talk to you later). take care. homework!

me : yelaa. haha ttyl 

APEAPESAJELAAYEADASAYAKESAH : seriously talking, i don't need boyfriend. all i need is a friends who always be there when i need them. boys or girls, men or ladies, they were my friends. that's all i need :)

between us (love story)

dalam kebosanan melampau yang melanda diri saya hari ni,jadi saya nak critekan satu crite yg tak brape nak sedih,and tak brape nak klaka. saya create sendiri ye crite nii. tade copy2 nye. and crite ni mungkin panjang siket and mungkin ade sambungan pada mase akan datang. and mungkin crite nii bahasa dia berterabur siket. so i'm sorry if ade kesalahan ayat or ejaan. dan saya akan membahasakan diri dgn 'I' dan 'You'  :)

"And the story begin,,,

10th January 2010

you masuk class tuh untuk kali yg pertama sebab you student baru kat sini. I pulak tengah salin notes yg cikgu bagi. and that time you masuk my friend said , 'wei, ade student baru doe'. i tak brape nak dengar sebab class tuh bising, 'hah?' memang sakit hati bila cakap dengan i time dorang tengah bising. 'hiess tuhhaa ade student baru'  so i pandang laa dekat depan i mcm tak suke bile ade student baru masuk class nii sebab dah biase dgn student yg ade so kalau ade student baru rase mcm lain pulak. mase i tengok muke you, i tak tau kenapa i tak suke dengan you. memang tak suke langsung. sebab you kerekk gile. senyum siket pon tade. i pon tak tahu cane my friends bole kate you nii handsome. for me,biase je. then you jalan sebelah my friends. my friend memang peramah,cepat mesra, dia senyum kat you dengan niat nak lah tegur you. tapi unfortunately, you langsung tak senyum nak pandang dia hujung2 mata pon susah. at that time i fikir, "kerekk gile mamat nii. mcm bagos je". muke you memang anoyyed gile. menyampah tengok. you punye blagak tak bole blaa. hiss tak suke laa 

12 January 2010

even though da 2 hari you same class dengan kitorang, susah sangat nak dengar you cakap dengan kitorang. kalau you ade ckp pon,you ckp dengan chinese jek. duduk pon sebelah chinese. dorang kate you chinese sebab muke you mcm cina.. tak tahu lah. tapi kalau dah name tuh ade BIN mestilah Muslim kan. bile you dah tak ckap dengan kitorang, kitorang pon takkan lah nak mcm terhegeh-hegeh nak tegur you and nak membe dengan you pulak. so kitorang pon act as usual la. mcm you tade kt klas nii. but my friend tuh still try nak buat you senyum dgn kitorang even dia slalu fail. and kebencian i dgn prangai you yg sombong dan berlagak tuh semakin la bertambah. makin tak suke i dgn you. i tak pernah harap pon you tegur i. unfortunately, after recess my form teacher bole pulak suro i bawak and temankan you pergi pejabat nak ambil fail. kenapa i?? sebab i assistant monitor and monitor tuh tak boleh harap nak suro dia bwak you pegi jumpe principal!! dengan keterpaksaan i pergi. i have to sebab cikgu da suro i pergi takkan i nak kate NO pulak. mase nak pergi tuh,sorang pon tanak temankan i pergi bwak you. so terpakse lah i pergi sorang2. mase dalam perjalanan tuh tade sepatah perkataan pon yg kluar dari mulut you. i ade laa try ckp2 yela mane tau you nak ckap ke so tak la i boringg gile teman you kan. tapi you tak ckp jugak,asek i jek yg ber-kate2. after you settle sume urusan you kt pejabat tuh,kite pon balik laa klas. satu perkataan pon i tak dengar you ckap even perkataan "THANK YOU" sebab i da bwak you pergi pejabat. bukan i nak sgt dengar you ckp cm tuh but at least la, sedap siket hati lepas i tolong you. ni tak huuuummmm 

27 January 2010

baru a few weeks you skola kat sini, you da mcm nak ambil alih pulak tugas monitor kelas ni. you lah yg hantar buku,ambil kedatangan,cari cikgu. sume you. mcm laa klas kitorang nii tade monitor. even monitor kitorang mcm tak bole harap tapi dia still monitor kitorang! you pulak makin rapat dengan cikgu2. setiap kali kalau ade cikgu2 puji,mesti puji you. you baik lah, pandailah, rajinlah, baguslah. sume you. boringg! padahal you tak ade lah sgt mcm ape yg cikgu2 tuh ckap. berlagak ade lah. huh. at last our form teacher pecat monitor and lantik you pulak jadi monitor. adoii. bagi i, tak ade bende paling mengejutkan selain perlantikan you as our new monitor and yg lagi mengejutkan i when everybody setuju dgn bnde tuh. as assistant monitor,mestilah i kena byak buat kerja dgn monitor kan,so disebabkan i tak suke dgn berlagak you tuh,i tak sure i boleh kerjasama dgn orang yg berlagak mcm you. 

to be continue....

APEAPESAJELAAYEADASAYAKESAH : crite nii saya buat suke2 je. tak ade kena mengena dgn yg hidup ataupun yg telah meninggal dunia. jika ada persamaan dengan individu lain hanyalah secara kebetulan sahaja. saya cuma ingin berkongsi cerita fantasi ini dengan my follower dan saya hanyalah seorang pelajar yg sedang cuba untuk berkarya (cewahh!) dan masih lagi belajar. forgive me if there's anything wrong :)