She would not show that she was afraid. But being and feeling alone was too much to face. Though everyone said that she was so strong. What they didn't know is that she could barely carry on. She did gave up before. But she knew that she would be okay. So she didn't let it get in her way.
She showed them her brightest smile to cover up everything. She's lied. She's smiling and laughing at every single pieces of words they say even though it would hurt her. She knew that she would be okay.
Taking her for granted. She'd used to. Back then until now. Either she is too kind or too dumb to realise that this world is trying to knock her down.
Berdiri sendiri benci diri. Dia berdiri tanpa sokongan. Berdiri sendiri dengan segala rasa terperosok menutup hati. Benci aksi mereka melakon watak pentas dunia. Namun dia terpalit. Terjebak dengan aksi utama menusuk jiwa.
Sepi sendiri menanti. Melihat kelibat mana mungkin merubah bersama. Tanpa sedar sendiri bayang itu. Gelap semakin pekat. Menutup bayang yang dinanti. Tenggelam disebalik rasa benci semakin menghitam.
Menabur serata manis nya kata kata. Penipuan tanpa pengakhiran. Mengharap manis itu mampu menutup kata sandiwara. Menghapus segala jejak menghakis hati.
Berdiri teguh rasa berhenti. Mengatur langkah tanpa peta. Tanpa petunjuk mereka berteka. Usah bertanya itu permintaan kalian.
Hilang disebalik senyum gelak tawa. Dia semakin lemah. Mental. Jiwanya terdera. Begitu bahagia hati menyiksa. Sesal sendiri nanti tak perlu ditanya.
She's strong. She hold her loved ones. But they never sees her. They knocked her down. They tear her apart.
Yeah she's give up. She's tired. She's done with everything. Stop asking. You wont get your answer cause it is in your heart.
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